Right now, I am chewing on lime mints and contemplating. I am in a calmer state of mind now. I am thinking about what I'm going to do the next few days and so far the only thing that could get in the way is most likely, myself.
At 1130am this afternoon, I decided on starting my 3-day fast. Thursday-Saturday, seems like a pretty good start. I've never gotten past 1.5 days which is really a testament to what a pussy I am. But I really hope to see this through. I know by experience that there won't be that much of a drastic weight loss but right now I just really want to probe to myself that I'm not as weak. Not as easily swayed into the pleasures of the flesh.
It is the season of Lent. This should be a good, almost divine start to a new me. Food has after all always been my weakness and abstinence is key to a pure state of mind. Maybe it could help me clear my thoughts too. Help me refocus my efforts and energies a bit. Help me be who I want to be.
Who I want to be... That's a tough one. But either way I think being thin is a good start. I know that losing weight and looking better might not necessarily make me happier or drastically change my life. Turn it into the American dream. Turn me into something gorgeous and perfect. But it is a start...
XOXO,
anna-marie
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