Cokehead

So I didn't have the PB&J sandwich in the end.

I ended up cramming my mouth with those lime mints instead and tried as hard as possible to ignore all heeds and calls from my friends trying to get me to partake in their eating, Macdonald's ordering and snuffling down off greasy, greasy, greasy potato chips (you have no idea how much I wanted them). In fact I have been subsisting on these lime mints, Coca Cola Zero and black coffee since Thursday till not too long ago when I decided to have my black coffee with an Alpen 62-calories energy bar and a little cherry apple which I am approximating to be at around 55 calories. It made me balloon up 0.3 kg.

What is with that?!

On a seperate note, I think that going without food instills weird cravings in you. I have always hated carbonated drinks of any kind and I found myself consuming 3 cans of the stuff in under 24 hours. I have to kick that before it becomes a habit though. My mom will flip if she finds out. She is a health nut and a very skinny one at that. In fact she is somewhere between a US Size 0 - 2. How sick is that. It makes me feel like such a genetic failure sometimes.

But I guess I shouldn't be complaining too much. I was 50kg this morning opposed to a hefty 53.6 on Thursday. A 3.6kg weight loss in 3 days should call for some sort of elated celebration I suppose. But not just yet...

No eating for me tomorrow and Tuesday as there'll be some form of weight and height measurement in school some time early this week. I hope I'll be hovering around 49kg after that quick fast. I couldn't bear being 50kg and above in front of anybody, ugh! I'm trying to not eat as much as possible this whole week in fact. There's probably going to be some sort of feasting with my friends on Friday so I really should be losing as much as I can before my willpower buckles at it's knees like I know it will and I end up ballooning up to 55kg or something. (This has happened before, it was ugly.)

Wish me luck! I'm going to be needing it. (:

XOXO,
Anna-Marie